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The Weight of
Paper Preoccupation with bureaucracy or better yet equation of my name with what I deem another’s fate: no, these don’t eat at me although a paperweight collection by my indiscriminate mail slot smothers anything that claims I owe more than seventy-six ticks a minute or my mother a visit and Jell-O mold. Billing flamingos tinted in. A flowered obelisk. Dark quartz with yellow veins. Oval. Conical. The Eiffel Tower. Bar charts. Additions. My stark minimums. The Sphinx is always so quick off its stack. I know when I am licked. * Bill’s Dream Ordinarily I wouldn’t mention it but this has been a draining week. I haven’t once dreamed anything of consequence. But that can be draining too, week after week of dreams that make everything
of consequence: a chicken in orbit, an armless orchestra. So after weeks of dreams of making it with Kim Novak in Vertigo, a chicken in orbit and an armless orchestra tumble into dream like sweaty strangers. Because with Kim Novak in Vertigo the dream is clean, sketched: a tumble with a dreamy, sweaty stranger. Pinch yourself. You’re dreaming. But sketchy dreams really clean you out. Maybe all dreams are that way. Maybe Kim didn’t
deliver, which puts you in a pinch: was it simply you in Jimmy Stewart’s well-pressed
suit? Dreams are that
way. Kim didn’t deliver and surely you didn’t pluck her from that steeple
anyway. It was simply you in Jimmy Stewart’s suit, well
pressed to reckon why Kim wore a snorkel in bed. You don’t have the pluck for Kim anyway. Sure,
you stipulate waking from dreams is like losing a rough
argument, but reckoning why Kim wore a snorkel in bed— or was it a rubber nose? a camo negligee?— is the rough wake from the dream, the lost
argument. What argument? What are you arguing about anyway?
A dream? A rubber nose? A camo negligee? Who are you arguing with? Anyway, a dream is like an argument you couldn’t dream up, the one where you’re arguing with someone you wouldn’t ordinarily mention this to. * Hammocked, Bill I wave them on and still the clouds don’t act, just bare their hairline fractures like victims of an authorless crime, an atmospheric crash. Let’s just leave it at that. These cosmic types are everybody’s star witnesses. In this stratosphere, Pluto may be little more than a chalk outline, but the battered cumulonimbus is this close to giving up Tropical Storm Edgar, which never even touched it. And that’s vindication under the bright lights, that’s evidence. Some will spill guts for a cup of java or gust of wind in the interrogation room. Anything at all to build a case. ** Dan
Kaplan’s chapbook Skin, a
letterpress, bilingual edition produced in collaboration with Cuban artist
Julio Cesar Peña and translator Maria Vargas, is due from Red Hydra Press in
2005. Work recently appears or is forthcoming in Meridian, Spinning Jenny,
Forklift, Ohio, Third Coast, Pool, Good Foot, and others. These poems are from Bill’s Formal Complaint. Archived
at http://lit.konundrum.com/poetry/kapland_poems.htm |